Our Story

So I supposed the first posting we enter should be our story to explain why we are journaling our journey to parenthood. Here it is:

Justin and I got married on October 13, 2007 and knew we didn't want to wait long for children. We both loved children and knew we wanted to be parents while we were young to enjoy them and be able to play with them. So it wasn't a surprise that a few months into our marriage, we had stopped preventing pregnancy. After several months went by with no results, a friend suggested that we try an ovulation kit. We did and had no success again. Finally, the holidays were upon us. We had decided that we would take a break from trying to conceive and joined a gym. Well, there we were, three weeks later and I had fallen on the ice (which was unusual). I wasn't feeling well either. I went to the doctor and low-and-behold, I tested positive for pregnancy! We were elated about the news.

And so began our journey into parenthood. At least we thought. Not much time had passed and we went to the doctor on January 12th expecting to see a heartbeat, only there wasn't one. The next three weeks after that consisted of blood tests every other day and in between those days, ultrasounds. Finally, after the third week, the doctor had to share the bad news that we were going to lose this baby.

Much love and support were given the next week as I had to undergo a DNC. My body was not taking the course of a natural miscarriage. There was much grieving that took place after that January 23rd. I had journaled to our baby-to-be letters of our experience through the pregnancy thus far, and had to delete those files because it was so heart-breaking to look at it everyday.

We were positive through the next few months that we would get our chance again at a family, but with no success. Now, 7 months after the miscarriage, we are in hopes of still getting our wish.

I hope that this story touches everyone's heart that has lost a child. I hope that you find hope in our postings to come. I hope that you find faith in the words of someone who gets it and understands.

I also hope for every parent out there, that you realize exactly how precious your child is. I hope that you cherish every moment with that little one, whether it was planned or unplanned. And know, I pray that you will never have to experience the loss of a child.

Love and Prayers,
Beth